Yesterday, I kept thinking about tweeting, “this is the first time in years that I’m excited about my upcoming birthday and not wallowing in misery like in the past.” It kept popping up in my head all throughout the day but I never really got the chance to post anything. It was also partly because I didn’t want to be happy and joyful while people on the internet are all sad about the chaotic issues that have been happening.
Just now, I was reading Richel’s Rambles About a TV Series: Thirteen Reasons Why and I suddenly got sad. It is the same sadness I felt when I was watching the Netflix adaptation of Jay Asher’s book. I think I was triggered because most of what she said is the exact same way I feel towards the show.
I scrolled down and saw Bae’s comment about Alex fixing his stuff, just like what Hannah did, before he supposedly committed suicide. People are pointing out that Alex indeed tried ending his life because that act was a sign. (We’ll have to wait for season two to find out.) If you watched the documentary 13 Reasons Why: Beyond the Reasons, there was one instance where they explained that it is a manifestation of suicidal thoughts, that people who commit suicide often clean up their things, arrange what needs to be arranged, before their self destruction.
I never recalled experiencing this while watching but it hit me while going through the comments. It flashed back just like in movies.
I almost committed suicide.
Fiesta is one of my favorite things in the province.
For one, you are served with not just one, not just two, not just three, (okay, I actually lost count) but many dishes that you can imagine. It even doubles because whenever you visit a relative’s house, they surely will make you eat. I have three aunts who celebrated that day’s festivity, by the way.
Secondly, being the Culinary Capital of the country, Kapampangans cook the best tasting dishes ever. Partially bias, I know, but I’ve never really had bad-tasting food by someone who hails from Pampanga.
It’s hard to pen a name, make a mark, think of a title, or come up with a really catchy domain. (Do you say, do-main or doh-main? Because I say the former. Ha ha ha!”
“Oooohh, what if betwixtandbetween.com?”
*searches for betwixtandbetween.com*
“Damn it, it’s already taken!”
“Why not put dashes?”
“Betwixt-and-between.com? Isn’t that too long?”
“Why not, though?”
*searches for betwixt-and-between.com*
“Oh, it’s available!”
“But it’s still too long.”
*insert sad face*
I wasn’t talking to anybody; it was a conversation with myself.
Hello? Mic. Test. Mic. Test. Mic.
Going on a break from the blogging community had resulted to a good outcome. For one, I think about so many potential topics to write about; mostly personal thoughts, oftentimes relatable experiences.
BREAK: It feels weird to literally type. I haven’t written anything in a long, long time.
As of this writing, I still don’t know what domain to register. My old URL is now expired and is more expensive than ever. So, if you’re reading this right now, I’m so sure I have finally unearthed something to call this place. (Anxiety: what if you don’t think of anything??? Ugh.)
Guess who was so bored at home and decided to do such a video? Yep, me and my niece!