Pausing for a while, away from the volume of the audio and the fast transitions of stills.
I have yet to decide on what plan to apply, how to arrange designs uniformly for a more pleasing aesthetic, and to come up with strategies to let my presence be heard (or for aptness, seen).
But life lately had been a blur. I am the worst whenever I am anxious. I am still trying to convince myself that maybe I was not depressed before, maybe it was an anxiety disorder. But in truth, I don’t think we will ever know.
How devastating it would have been not to find me in my usual place; or see me doing the same activities people thought I enjoyed doing alone.
Honestly, I know what I want to talk about but I just can’t divulge you with it right now. I don’t know where this is leading. I know I just needed to whip up something different, something realistic; something I needed not to shoot in an angle or pan horizontally to give the audience a view of its entirety.
Maybe not in this place.
Maybe this is just a cry for help; or a cry for attention. Or maybe, this is just me letting myself breathe again, letting myself breathe some more.
In case you’re wondering what I was talking about in the first paragraph, I’m doing vlogs again (after four years)! http://youtube.com/minxilicious if you want to subscribe!